April 28, 2020

When social-distancing first started, I figured, besides my anxiety about the virus itself, my life wouldn't change a huge amount and the transition would probably be easy for me. My work is already remote, my financial situation is stable, and my partner and I are pretty used to co-existing in our apartment for long periods of time. 

Almost immediately, I found that if I didn't work hard to use my systems and tools meant to support my mental health, my functionality would quickly deteriorate. I frequently felt like I wasn't okay and also that I had no business feeling that way.

After some ref...

January 25, 2020

CN: extensive discussion of the experience of being in an abusive relationship, discussion of physical abuse and the painful process of recovery after abuse, mention of sexual abuse. 


Being able to recognize that you are being abused, while the abuse is still happening, is mind-bogglingly difficult. I say mind-boggling because even though dozens of people trying to tell me that my relationship was abusive was completely ineffective for me, it’s still my first instinct when someone’s partner exhibits abusive behaviors to try to tell them that. I know that this extremely straight-forward tactic...

December 28, 2019

CN: extensive discussion of the dynamics, healing process, and emotional experience of abuse. General discussion of PTSD and trauma responses. This post may encourage trauma processing. Read it at your own pace!

I have a large number of friends who have been through at least one kind of abuse and I’ve noticed that if someone has gone through the process of recognizing that something that happened to them was abusive at least once, it becomes much more important to them to evaluate future behaviors as potentially abusive. 

It can be really difficult to tell, especially if you have PTSD and some o...

October 19, 2019


CN: Explicit descriptions and in depth discussion of chronic pain, abuse, medical neglect, gaslighting, and oppression through poverty. Discussion of sexual assault, trauma, mental and illness. Mention of genitals.
 

There is a disconnect between the experience of a patient and the experience of a medical professional, one that worsens if the patient’s illness is chronic or not easily explained. As more and more stories of medical neglect as a result of marginalization are brought to light, I hope that we can collectively reduce that disconnect and bring understanding and accommodation of marg...

February 3, 2019

CN: in-depth discussion of racism including specific examples of macro and microaggressions and of the effects of racism on emotional and mental wellbeing. Mention of Nazis and police brutality. 

When you publish work submitted by external writers, you wait for the piece that leaps out at you, that you know as soon as you read it that it needs to be read by other people. Clarity’s guest post today looks at how racism is so insidious, it creeps into situations and actions that a white person would never think twice about, and provokes a sense of life-consuming threat, regardless how kind or in...

June 16, 2018

CN: In depth descriptions of the experience of mental illnesses including PTSD, anxiety, and depression, generally emotionally heavy content, ableism, trauma.
 

I’m clutching a tissue in my hands, the words “I can’t I can’t I can’t” swirling around my head.


My best friend has her hand on my knee. She’s carefully offering me solutions to try to get me out of this trap. I say no to every single one. I know it looks like I don’t want to find a way out. I do. I can’t find it. I want permission to lose it, permission to stop searching for a way to function like a normal person. I don’t want to be he...

March 25, 2017

CN: chronic pain, PTSD, doctor neglect, ableism, emetophobia (mention only)
 

When you meet a new doctor, you’re allowed just a few sentences to communicate everything about who you are, where you’ve come from, and which details of your health history are the important ones. In such a limited format, it's hard for me to convey to a new doctor how long I spent looking out for myself with no close relationship to a primary practitioner. I feel the urge to present them with a highly organized spreadsheet detailing the emotional variables, inefficient medical system, and complexity of life events t...

March 8, 2017

CN: mental illness, PTSD

At the beginning of most of my posts, I'll be using a note that starts "CN" followed by a list of certain topics and themes. CN stands for Content Note. Here I'm going to talk about what content notes or content warnings are, why I use them, and why I use them as opposed to trigger warnings. 
 

Trigger Warnings 
 

You've probably heard of trigger warnings, which have gained a lot of media attention in the past few years particularly in colleges and in online social justice circles. The purpose of trigger warnings is to give a heads up to people that the content they are...

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Kella Hanna-Wayne

Creator of Yopp!

 

Kella is disabled, cis, white, bisexual, an agnostic quaker, a feminist, and a social justice mage who works as a freelance writer and blogger. She sports an impressive resume of health problems and mental illnesses, including Ehlers Danlos Syndrome (EDS), Celiac's disease, and depression.

 

She writes about anyone who is hurting and needs help in this world, but specializes in education on topics like feminism, racism, ableism, and transphobia; creative non-fiction about disability and mental illness; and poetry on abuse and recovery.


In her spare time, Kella organizes and DJ's an argentine tango dancing event, bakes gluten free masterpieces, sings loudly along with pop music, and makes cat noises. Kella has won the internet several times with her writing and hopes to make as much of a social impact as possible on people new or just wading in, to social justice.