Why I Stopped Taking Gabapentin

I am updating and republishing some of my early articles from this blog. Please enjoy this article, originally published under the title “Color” in March of 2017, about the early days of my chronic pain journey.  CN: extensive discussion of the experience of anxiety, chronic pain, medication side effects, and medical neglect. Duloxetine was the first pain medication my doctor ever prescribed me, an anti-depressant that can sometimes help with pain.  A year after I …Read More

9 Things That Blocked My Access to Medical Treatment

CN: detailed discussion of chronic pain, PTSD, doctor neglect, and ableism; mention of emesis. I am updating and republishing some of my early articles from this blog. Please enjoy this article that was originally published as “26” in March, 2017, and has been cross-posted on medium, about the early attempts to diagnose the cause of my chronic pain and other symptoms.  When you meet a new doctor, you’re allowed just a few sentences to communicate everything about …Read More

Wait, Your Body Doesn’t Do This, Too?

I am updating and republishing some of my early articles from this blog. Please enjoy this article that was originally published as “The Blue Book” in May 2017 and was cross-published on the Medium publication No End In Sight in November of 2019, about the early stages of my experience with chronic illness and chronic pain.  CN: chronic pain, ableism, images of mild body contortions I sat down at the bus stop. There were still a …Read More

“Needing Extra Care Doesn’t Make You a Burden” Got a Glow-up!

Back when we first started designing and releasing our own original designs for merch, in August 2020,  our very first design was the simple drawing of an orchid with the words “Needing Extra Care Doesn’t Make You a Burden.” After doing a few more designs, we learned a lot more about how to do digital art, what our style was, and how to make art that prints well. After a while, our first piece seemed …Read More

Young Hot & Full of Moderate to Severe Joint Pain: New Merch!

Some of you may be familiar with the game Cards Against Humanity. While it has its problems, this amazing card combo made the rounds in the chronic illness communities on social media. Every time I saw it, I felt like it described my life so perfectly, like it was way more than just a meme. So it went on my list of ideas to turn into merch and now that idea is a reality! You …Read More

Adjusting to Social-Distancing & Other Lessons from Chronic Illness

CN: Extensive discussion of the experience of chronic illness, the emotional experience of living during the pandemic, brief discussion of ableism, grief, and financial hardships. The era of Covid-19 has been a strange time for folks with chronic illness. For anyone with pre-existing conditions that make catching the virus more dangerous, it has been a scary time with the already high stakes that surround our health getting even higher. But recently, everyone else’s world has …Read More

Redefining Disability: An Identity of Adaptation and Creativity

CN: extensive discussion of ableist cultural narratives Before 2014, I knew very little about the concept of disability or disability activism. Believing myself to be able-bodied, I had been protected from the whole world of problems disabled people face as a result of a society that isn’t built for them. My journey to identifying as a disabled person was anything but clear cut. Before the injury that flipped my life upside-down, I thought that my …Read More

Interview for Secular Sexuality

CN: brief discussion of sexuality, sexism influenced medical neglect, reproductive disorders, and disability. Remember my interview about sex and disability last month on the podcast Into Your Body? Story time: Before that podcast was recorded, Vi La Bianca, a previous guest blogger for Yopp, invited me to come onto her youtube show Secular Sexuality to discuss sex and disability. To be honest, I felt nervous about interviewing about a topic I don’t particularly specialize in– …Read More

Podcast Interview on Sex & Disability

A few weeks ago I got together with my friend DJ and we had a conversation about disability and sex for his podcast Into Your Body. Dj’s podcast explores some progressive takes on sexuality and your relationship with your body, particularly exploring how these topics intersect with particular marginalizations. This was my very first podcast and my first recorded interview and I had a really good time talking about some of the deeper nuances of …Read More

I Don’t Have Interstitial Cystitis

CN: extensive discussion of bladder problems, urination, pelvic floor work and internal exams, dietary restrictions, food, descriptions of pain; mention of sex, various health problems, and PTSD. I have always needed to pee more often than anyone I know. When I was a kid, in addition to being a frequent bed-wetter, I also wet my pants whenever I laughed too hard and unlike most kids, I never grew out of the habit. My embarrassing attempts …Read More